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Dilzar D\u00ceLOK<\/em><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n \n Y\u00fcre\u011fini da\u011flar\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fiyle bulu\u015fturan ve bu bulu\u015fmay\u0131 yeni bir a\u015fk, bir \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck a\u015fk\u0131 olarak adland\u0131ran gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n yolda\u015fla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Gerilla zamanlar\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetmenin co\u015fkusunda, da\u011flar\u0131n y\u00fcceli\u011fine dokunman\u0131n onurunda ve her an\u0131n tarih olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmenin olgunlu\u011funda bir gerilla. Ad\u0131 Laser. Birlikte \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck zamanlar\u0131n\u0131 soludu\u011fu yolda\u015flar\u0131 \u015fahs\u0131nda K\u00fcrdistan\u2019\u0131n her par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131man\u0131n, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ke\u015ffetmenin ve kendini t\u00fcm d\u00fcnyayla b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015ftirmenin k\u0131vanc\u0131nda Laser.<\/p>\n Zaman onun y\u00fcre\u011finden yepyeni anlamlar y\u00fcklenip ak\u0131yor. Kendi h\u0131z\u0131nda, kendi a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ve kararl\u0131. Ona bak\u0131nca zaman\u0131n bamba\u015fka ak\u0131\u015f h\u0131zlar\u0131 oldu\u011funu hissediyorum bir kez daha.<\/p>\n Kendisi gibi gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n yolda\u015flar\u0131yla konu\u015furken dinliyorum onu. Onlara sistem kar\u015f\u0131t\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7lere ve kapitalizme ili\u015fkin g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerini anlat\u0131yor Laser. Bir ara o konu\u015furken defterini kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorum. Ne yok ki! Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015fey var Laser\u2019in defterinde. Bir yanda y\u00fcre\u011finden s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp gelenler, y\u00fcre\u011finde bir k\u0131p\u0131rt\u0131 olu\u015fturup da yazmadan edemedikleri, \u015fiirleri, karalamalar\u0131; di\u011fer yanda evrenin olu\u015fumu, d\u00fcnya tarihi, demokratik uygarl\u0131\u011fa ili\u015fkin ders notlar\u0131n\u0131n yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r bir y\u00fcre\u011fi and\u0131r\u0131yor defteri.<\/p>\n \u015eimdi s\u00f6z hakk\u0131n\u0131 Laser\u2019in defterine b\u0131rak\u0131yorum:<\/p>\n Da\u011fa att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ilk ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131zda saflar\u0131 s\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yoruz. Devrim ate\u015finin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcreklerimizde hissederek ba\u015flat\u0131yoruz \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc. De\u011ferli gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 aram\u0131zda g\u00f6rmekten onur duyuyoruz. \u0130\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fumuz devrim s\u00fcrecinde \u00d6nder Apo\u2019nun yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 paradigman\u0131n ruhuyla biz devrimci gen\u00e7 kad\u0131nlar da\u011fa att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu ilk ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131zla onuru ya\u015f\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n Do\u011fa y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz ve ilk ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131z ancak da\u011f\u0131 do\u011fru ve ideolojik olarak anlamland\u0131rarak do\u011fru tan\u0131m\u0131na ula\u015fabilir. Gerillac\u0131l\u0131k yapm\u0131\u015f ve zindanda tutsakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015fayan yolda\u015flar\u0131n g\u00f6zlerinde her zaman daha parlak bir \u0131\u015f\u0131k olurdu. Ve gariptir elleri bana \u0131\u015f\u0131k renginde g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onlar \u201c\u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn da\u011f kokusuyla merhaba\u201d diyerek ba\u015flard\u0131 namelerine. Ben romantize ederek anlam verirdim ve bunun nas\u0131l bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu k\u0131smen de olsa da\u011f\u0131n izlerini ta\u015f\u0131yan \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu yani k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc hat\u0131rlayarak anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n \u015eimdi \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn kokusunu soluyorum da\u011fda. \u015eehirlerin ve kapitalizmin tozu ve kirinden s\u0131yr\u0131labildi\u011fimce duyumsuyorum. Ve ben de b\u00f6yle merhabala\u015fmaya karar verdim. Da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131zda \u015fehit d\u00fc\u015fen ve \u015fimdi zindanlarda tutsak olan gerillalar\u0131n y\u00fcreklerine az\u0131c\u0131k da olsa dokunmak istiyorum. Dokunursam yanar\u0131m korkusunu att\u0131m \u00fczerimden.<\/p>\n Ve olabildi\u011fince kendimize yak\u0131nla\u015farak ve kendimizle tan\u0131\u015farak, k\u0131sa \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn en anlaml\u0131 ve devrim y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn mihenk ta\u015f\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131zda gerillay\u0131m, gerillay\u0131z i\u015fte.<\/p>\n Sincaplar\u0131n, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n ve gerillalar\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe h\u0131zla, v\u00fccudun kaslar\u0131ndaki de\u011fi\u015fimin a\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131yla bana d\u00fcndeki zay\u0131fl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor. D\u00f6rt duvardan uzak ve \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcyle mavilik olan bu yemye\u015fil yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde, i\u015fgal alt\u0131ndaki \u00fclkemin bana onca yaraya ra\u011fmen arma\u011fan etti\u011fidir.<\/p>\n Envai renkli \u00e7i\u00e7ekle, her \u00e7e\u015fit a\u011fa\u00e7 birlikte ya\u015f\u0131yoruz. D\u00f6rt taraf\u0131m\u0131zda pusuya yatm\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015fman karakollar\u0131ndan koruyan do\u011fa merhametlice, yolda\u015f\u00e7a bas\u0131yor ba\u011fr\u0131na bizleri. Ve uyumaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131rken, pepuk ku\u015fu bana durmadan amac\u0131m\u0131 hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor. Analar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n a\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 gece boyunca pepuk ku\u015funun sesinden deliyor geceyi.<\/p>\n Anam ve babam\u0131n aya yakar\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlayarak uzan\u0131yorum \u00e7\u0131plak ye\u015file ve yorgan\u0131m olan gecenin y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcyorum \u00fczerime. Yan yana yolda\u015flarca payla\u015f\u0131lan g\u00fcn\u00fcn anlam\u0131n\u0131n yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcthi\u015f mana dolulu\u011fuyla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131yorum geceyi.<\/p>\n \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn da\u011f kokusuyla merhaba.<\/p>\n \n Gen\u00e7 gerilla Laser, bu sat\u0131rlarla ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f defterine. Her ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 ya\u015fama ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7t\u0131r. Gerillada yeni bir deftere ba\u015flamak, hayat\u0131n\u0131n yeni bir d\u00f6nemine ba\u015flamak anlam\u0131ndad\u0131r. Her an bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 yapabilme g\u00fcc\u00fcne ula\u015fanlar\u0131n felsefesidir bu. Ancak b\u00f6yle bir kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olanlar bunu ba\u015farabilir. Zaman\u0131 \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck sosyolojisi olarak alg\u0131layanlar\u0131n yapabilece\u011fidir. Her an\u0131n tarih yaratma an\u0131 olabilme ihtimali, gerillalar\u0131 tarih yaratma kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde b\u00f6yle olur i\u015fte. Her ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 bir ya\u015fam ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 olur. Her ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 bir do\u011fum olur.<\/p>\n B\u00f6yle zamanlarda, tarihin derinliklerindeki sesler gelir, gerillan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011finin \u00e7eperinde yank\u0131lan\u0131r. Ki\u015finin sesi kolektifle\u015fir. Kendi sesine kulak verirken t\u00fcm kendiliklerin, t\u00fcm toplumun sesi duyulur. T\u00fcm kavramlar yeniden yorumlan\u0131r. Yeni bir s\u00f6zl\u00fck olu\u015ftururcas\u0131na tan\u0131mlan\u0131r her \u015fey.<\/p>\n \u0130\u015fte, toprak, emek, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ve anlam da Laser\u2019in sat\u0131rlar\u0131nda yeniden tan\u0131mlanma \u015fans\u0131na ula\u015f\u0131yor:<\/p>\n pepuk ku\u015funun a\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 yank\u0131lan\u0131yorken kulaklar\u0131mda<\/p>\n ve y\u00fcre\u011fim bir yerinden par\u00e7alan\u0131p<\/p>\n yeniden ye\u015fermeyi \u00f6\u011frenirken<\/p>\n anka ku\u015funa kavu\u015fmak isteyen simurglara kat\u0131l diyorum pepuk ku\u015funa<\/p>\n \u015fimdi \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7arp\u0131yor da\u011flara.<\/p>\n ve yank\u0131lan\u0131yor s\u00f6m\u00fcrge \u015fehirlerde<\/p>\n inleyen mazlum halk\u0131m<\/p>\n ve pepuk ku\u015funun sesiyle analar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n a\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131 kulaklar\u0131m\u0131zda<\/p>\n anama ana oluyorum fark\u0131nda olmadan<\/p>\n onu ve b\u00fct\u00fcn ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131ma bas\u0131p<\/p>\n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerimizle varmak istiyorum ellerine<\/p>\n toprak kokulu ve yorgun ellerine<\/p>\n bir anka bilgeli\u011finde anka cesaretinde kanat \u00e7\u0131rpmak istiyorum<\/p>\n yar\u0131n\u0131 yak\u0131n k\u0131lmaya.<\/p>\n Arad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 bulma sevinci kadar m\u00fccadele etme ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck aray\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fctme kararl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u00fcm sat\u0131rlarda yer bulmu\u015f kendine. En g\u00fczelini en sona saklad\u0131m bu defa. Laser gibi yapt\u0131m. O merhabas\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n sonuna yerle\u015ftirmi\u015fti. Ben de sonuna onun \u015fiirden merhabas\u0131n\u0131 yerle\u015ftirdim. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn hissedildi\u011fi anlar\u0131n kelimelerde nas\u0131l v\u00fccut buldu\u011funu bu sat\u0131rlar \u00e7ok g\u00fczel g\u00f6steriyor. G\u00fczelli\u011fin ar\u0131nmakla m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funu, ya\u011fmur imgesiyle \u00e7ok g\u00fczel b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015ftirmi\u015f Laser. \u0130nsan y\u0131kan\u0131p temizlenmek, ar\u0131nmak isterse t\u00fcm do\u011fa ona yard\u0131m eder dercesine d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f dizelere \u00f6zlemlerini, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck sevincini. Laser\u2019in toprak kokulu \u015fiiri i\u015fte:<\/p>\n \u201cmerhaba<\/p>\n karanl\u0131k \u00e7\u00f6zmek \u00fczere<\/p>\n ve merhaba,<\/p>\n gelmek \u00fczere olan karanl\u0131ktan \u00f6nce direnen \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa<\/p>\n hala ya\u011fmur ya\u011f\u0131yor,<\/p>\n g\u00fcnlerdir ya\u011f\u0131yor<\/p>\n kendime daha yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m anlar<\/p>\n neden hep ya\u011fmur anlar\u0131 oluveriyor<\/p>\n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ki durmaks\u0131z\u0131n y\u0131kan\u0131yorum<\/p>\n birden bire her \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fiyor<\/p>\n bu \u00e7a\u011flar \u00f6mr\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131 olurmu\u015f<\/p>\n yar\u0131s\u0131nda \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn, \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumun ye\u015fili ve sesleriyle<\/p>\n topra\u011f\u0131n kokusuna b\u00fcr\u00fcnecek<\/p>\n bu sefer korkusuzca ve cesaretlice<\/p>\n bunun fark\u0131nda olarak \u00f6yle ya\u015f\u0131yorum \u00e7ocuklu\u011fumu<\/p>\n kavgada yeniden \u00e7ocuk olunurmu\u015f<\/p>\n \u015fark\u0131larda, \u015fiirlerde s\u00f6ylenenlerin hepsi ger\u00e7ek.\u201d<\/p>\n \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Dilzar D\u00ceLOK Y\u00fcre\u011fini da\u011flar\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fiyle bulu\u015fturan ve bu bulu\u015fmay\u0131 yeni bir a\u015fk, bir \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck a\u015fk\u0131 olarak adland\u0131ran gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n yolda\u015fla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Gerilla zamanlar\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetmenin co\u015fkusunda, da\u011flar\u0131n y\u00fcceli\u011fine dokunman\u0131n onurunda ve her an\u0131n tarih olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmenin olgunlu\u011funda bir gerilla. Ad\u0131 Laser. Birlikte \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck zamanlar\u0131n\u0131 soludu\u011fu yolda\u015flar\u0131 \u015fahs\u0131nda K\u00fcrdistan\u2019\u0131n her par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131man\u0131n, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ke\u015ffetmenin ve kendini […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":735,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-734","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultur-ve-sanat"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/734","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=734"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/734\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":736,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/734\/revisions\/736"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/735"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=734"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=734"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/tirki.komunar.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=734"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}